The "J"

2010-03-23T18:25:00.002+08:00

The moment I opened it, I regretted and knew it was a mistake.

It's been a long time I had this feeling. Sad and jealous. I don't know how this happened but it just did. One moment ago, I was feeling so glad to have you with me. The next moment, I feel so sad and doubtful am I doing the right thing. It shouldn't be raised again. It shouldn't be an issue anymore....but I can't help it....am I becoming the person that I swore I'd never be?

Everytime a moment like this, I begin to question: How far can we go? Have I become the one and only?....

No answer. Perhaps I have no courage to face the truth....

I am drowning in the world of jealousy and I HATE IT!!! I need a hand to get me out of it.....

Woo~hoo~!!!

2010-03-19T19:27:00.003+08:00

Bored with nothing to do, decided to check out the blog which I abandoned long time ago. To my surprise, it still exists. Hahaha....

It's been almost a month since I passed out from medical school. It will take almost 2 months before I get my posting. Meanwhile I should be going everywhere for holiday. That's not the case unfortunately as Miss Jojo is penniless....lolz!!!

What to do? What to do? I'm really clueless. hahaha....

Random

2009-08-24T17:12:00.002+08:00

Just a few weeks ago, I was studying like mad, day and night, nonstop, to prepare for THE EOS 9 (aka Part I Final Professional Exam). All efforts have been paid off as I passed the exam. As expected, no distinction, but no regrets as well as I have done my best. =) But certainly I wanna be a good doctor.

Having much experience of shifting house, my parents and I were able to pack everything up within a day and shift them all to Batu Pahat next day. The new house has a big living hall but the rooms are average. I'm not too happy with the toilet because it's too small to my comfort. I'm most concerned with the bush in front of my house. It looks like a good breeding ground for the damn Aedes mosquitoes. (Oh no........I dont wanna get bitten!!!! I don wan dengue!!!!!!!)Arghhh....too bad the house was the only choice we had.....T-T

2009-04-10T16:58:00.004+08:00

Oh dear, I couldn't wait till any longer. The moment I stepped home, I been recalling what Prof B has told us in class just now. Having class with her is always inspiring. In fact I wonder why is it so quality professors like her are not teaching us during our junior semester? They are the people who guide us on the right track. Perhaps many of us would have perform much much better if given the chance to have teaching sessions from them starting early in the course.

Anyways....I can't do much to change the system. So I'd just share what Prof has taught me today. Hope you benefit from it in any way.

What are the components of a good history?

1. The chief complaint (always the symptoms + duration)

2. History of present illness (note it is not presenting illness!!!) which includes:

a. chronology

b. description of the symptoms

c. relevant positive & negative symptoms

d. systemic review

The trick is, let the informant (be it the mother or the father or whoever the care taker you are taking history from) tell you the story. Ask open questions! History = his story. Get the sequence right and be clear of the progression of the present illness. Starting from the point when the child was still perfectly well. When you have get the clear picture, you move on to details of each symptoms. Get as much as possible regarding the symptoms. If it is vomitting, you may wanna know about the frequency, the amount, the content, the position while the patient vomitted, etc. Then ask about symptoms that you think is relevant to your differential diagnosis both positive and negative. Finally review systemic condition. Another point to remember is, document everything you get from history taking and physical examination and best is to make a timeline so when you look at it you know what happen from beginning to the point when you clerk.

Physical examination of a child is oppoturnistic. But your documentation must be systematical. PE comprises of general examination, nutrition status, hydration status, and systemic examination. Well I shall not go into details. Go look up from the textbooks what are the signs you look for in each component.

Well, after finish clerking first round, organise and work out the history you have taken. Does it give you clue as to which exactly is the system you are dealing with? Be very specific. Say you concluded it is the upper airway that is involved here because there is stridoer, further asking to decide the exact location whether it is the larynx in which case patient will have hoarseness of voice.

Next, work out the underlying pathology. Fever tells you patient has inflammation which may be due to infection or autoimmun disease so on. Then determine the most likely etiology such as viral infection which is most common in URTI. Lastly decide whether there are symptoms or signs suggestive of complication eg. vomitting complicated by aspiration pneumonia.

Okay, here is a simple guide for you to make diagnosis based on your history and physical findings:
1. site of the disease eg respiratory system: nose - bronchioles
2. pathology eg. inflammation - infection / autoimmune
3. etiology eg. viral / bacterial / fungal / protozoan
4. complication eg. sepsis

So an example of a complete diagnosis that should be written down in the case file is:

Acute gastroenteritis secondary to Rotavirus infection with 5% dehydration

Prof B mentioned, Do not give up!!! She meant when you still cannot determine the diagnosis after finish clerking the first round, go back the list again and look into each of them and see what other information you may need to obtain to help you to formulate the diagnosis. Always check the evidence for your diagnosis at the end of the day and try to explain the symptoms by the underlying pathophysiology. Diagnosis which is complete and specific is essential because it guides you for good management! So DO NOT ever diagnose just for the sake of diagnosing! Diagnose because you want to help the patient in the best way you can. Understood?

For those who do not know, Prof B is a neonatologist. Respect to Prof! I think it's the toughest job to diagnose disease in neonates who do not speak our language yet. I still find being a paediatrician is a 'cool' thing. Mainly because it's more challenging to me. =)

1st March

2009-03-02T00:00:00.001+08:00

Happy anniversary my love....muacks!

EOP

2009-02-26T17:36:00.004+08:00

I certainly like exams! Because they make me learn. (painful way to learn though...)

I heard the first AS murmur in my life.....in the Sem8 EOP for Fam med. LOLz!

When will I remember the complete CVS examination includes the legs and lungs? (might have score higher if I remembered!!! Grghhhh....)

Consultation on anemia (to explain the lab result & management to patient) is not as easy as I thought it was.

Open question please!!!!!!! (I asked closed question instead and so patient did not disclose her diet history to me...T_T) Why is it now only I realised....sigh

I just found out iron supplement should not be taken together with dairy products, eggs, spinach, teach or coffee, whole grain and cereals as they reduce the absorption of iron (thence loss of the treatment value). Must tell ur patient to avoid those food 1 hr before or 2 hrs taking the iron tab.

Hope I pass *eyes closed tightly with hands together....praying hard*

Valentine's day 2009

2009-02-16T14:14:00.015+08:00

Thank you SM for a wonderful day spent together =)

A day trip

2009-02-09T11:00:00.013+08:00

M0nday is Thaipussam and it's a public holiday which means we are not required to present to school. So on Sunday, SM decided to bring me to a new place near Kelana Jaya (or is it in Kelana Jaya???not sure...) called 'Niu Zhe Xui'. The name itself attracted me as it coincides with the one famous historical town in Singapore. We set off and picked up my sister on the way so that she could join our fun and wouldn't be bored to death at home.

Once we arrived, we went straight to the eatery (it's lunch time and none of us especially SM can be starved). We found this place called 'FullHouse'. Sounds familiar? For those of you who like Korean drama, yes there was one name 'FullHouse' and Rain acted in it. That was what came to my mind when I first saw the name. The waiter greeted us in Korean and we found a place near the counter to sit. By the way, we stepped in the restaurant not because of the name but the decoration and atmosphere. Here I put some pictures for u to see....

The menu

Cute isn't it? These are just few pages.

The food

All three of us ordered separate set lunch which cost only RM15 and below including tax.

Lime juice

Ice lemon tea

Chicken soup

Carbonara Spaghetti (ordered) by Me

Dory fish chop (ordered) by SM

Chicken chop (ordered) by Sister

The dessert

The front door

The deco that makes me feel warm...

Other snapshots....

Things we bought....

When we finished exploring the place, we shift our destination to One Utama which is just nearby. We came to the

Waffle World!!!

and we ordered....

Clamp chowder

chocolate waffle with ice cream

Both are terrific!!! Yum yum...

After that, we went back to Kajang, where my sister stays and headed to Serdang for dinner. Apparently there is this very famous Pan Mee stall in Serdang (my sister led us there). Sorry pal I didn't take any picture of it. But it's a yum but cost the least (Big bowl RM3.50 and Small for RM3.00). If u wanna go there, what u can do is ask me and I'll ask my sister of course or go to Serdang and ask around. I think u can get it quite easily.

Happy Birthday KB...06/02/2009

2009-02-09T10:32:00.004+08:00

The cake was small but just enough for everyone. =) Hope your wish comes true KB...

Beautiful lights....

2009-02-06T23:33:00.004+08:00

Cologne Cathedral
Cologne Cathedral (German: Kölner Dom, officially Hohe Domkirche St. Peter und Maria) is the seat of the Archbishop of Cologne, under the administration of the Roman Catholic Church and is renowned as a monument of Christianity, of Gothic architecture and of the faith and perseverance of the people of the city in which it stands. It is dedicated to Saint Peter and the Blessed Virgin Mary.The cathedral is a World Heritage Site, being one of the best-known architectural monuments in Germany, and Cologne's most famous landmark, described by UNESCO as an "exceptional work of human creative genius".Cologne Cathedral is one of the world's largest churches, being the largest Gothic church in Northern Europe.

Brazil
Brazil (Portuguese: Brasil), officially the Federative Republic of Brazil (Portuguese: República Federativa do Brasil), is a country in South America.It is the fifth largest country by geographical area, occupying nearly half of South America,the fifth most populous country, and the fourth most populous democracy in the world.

Vienna
Vienna is the capital of Austria and is also one of the nine states of Austria. Art and culture have a long tradition in Vienna, including theater, opera, classical music and fine arts.

Paris

Paris is the capital of France and the country's largest city. It is situated on the river Seine, in northern France, at the heart of the Île-de-France region (also known as the "Paris Region"; French: Région parisienne).

Niagara Falls
The Niagara Falls are massive waterfalls on the Niagara River, straddling the international border between the Canadian province of Ontario and the U.S. state of New York. The falls are 17 miles (27 km) north-northwest of Buffalo, New York and 75 miles (120 km) south-southeast of Toronto, Ontario, between the twin cities of Niagara Falls, Ontario, and Niagara Falls, New York.

Another silly mistake .....again!!!!

2009-02-04T23:22:00.004+08:00

It was a fine day. After gathering enough ppl in my precious car, we seet off to Port Dickson for clinic teaching session with Prof. Teng. At first, I was abit worried if my precious car can go according to the expected speed. Luckily he didn't fail me (yea, my car is a boy and I name it Jay as it was written on the car plate). The journey went smoothly except we were abit late as we were not familiar with the road.

When we got there, everyone quickly got down the car and get ready for the teaching session. Me too. I wore my whitecoat and put in the stethoscope and I dropped my car key in my bag which i was thinking of bringing along to the clinic. However, I 'ter-letak' back my bag in the car and without realising the car key was still inside my bag, I 'ter-lock' my car. OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I shouted out loud after I bang and locked the last-unlocked-door. Not again............T_T (those who followed my blog will realise this is my second time...) So, yea, car key is locked in the car. LOLz!

What was fortunate was that Mr. Thangga, who saved my life during the first episode was there again! Since he is the only expert there, he had to help me out. (Kekeke!)
After finishing the teaching session, we started dealing with my silly mistake again. Almost everyone went around asking for a long wire with hook or a clothe hanger (on Mr. Thangga's order). After searching in and out the Klinik Kesihatan, Thangga and the rest finally got a long wire. He bent it like a professional and started hooking my car lock. After not more than 5 attempts, he succeed. I and the rest were so happy that we cheered in excitement (especially me myself). Thank you once again Mr. Thangga!!!

After two incidence, I am seriously thinking of a method to stop me from making such mistake again. Perhaps to prepare a spared key and give it to one of my groupmates to keep for me. So should such situation (God forbid!!!) occur again, I would at least have another key to deal with it....I am seriously considering that....Tell me if you have better idea k? Hahahahaa...............

2009-01-17T00:06:00.002+08:00

I believe you cannot escape from your mistake forever. Someday somehow you'll have to face it. I always wanna keep a conflict-free life and hence any conflict that comes in my way, I'll have to sort it out someway or another. It's either you move or the other person takes a step. I am that kinda person that usually takes the first step and that reason being I just can't live my life with peace when the issue occurs. So, I deal with it rather than avoiding. Well of course there are times when I couldn't face it and I hide from it. But that situation usually doesn't last too long. Or rather, I will eventually turn around and face it and deal with it! That is life! Life is tough and only the survivors stay on.

I thought this crappy feeling will never turn up in my life again but I was wrong. Once again, I feel like crap. But I know I have at least done what I should have done though earlier. Well, I guess now my patience is being tested. The only thing I could do is to 'wait' and still 'wait'. I may never get the ending that I seriously hope for but at least no regrets. Could not help but kept feeling guilty for all this while untill the message was sent. I just hope for the best for that person no matter what that person's response will be...

Prof. Harwant Singh

2009-01-02T17:19:00.002+08:00

He is someone I really look up to. He's intelligent, knowledgeable, and he's very funny! Things he says never fails to amaze me. Things he taught never fails to inspire me. His classes are forever filled with laughters. He is definitely one of the best teachers I've met.
To Prof
hope your 'making sports cars' dream will come true oneday... =)

2008-12-30T15:05:00.002+08:00

My precious car is "horn-less".....
I was driving back from JB to Seremban on Saturday. Suddenly the car horn of mine dropped off from the sterling! Ah...I don't know how it happened but it just happened =.= It was no big deal until the car I was driving started to honk (by itself) every now and then. OMG......imagined every other drivers around you staring at you like you have committed some serious crime. Haiz....I had no choice but to drive it back to Seremban to fix. And so the next day I got rid of it without replacing a new one. (Not that I don't want la....bcoz the shop's one doesn't fit my car and the other shop was closed la...haha). Have you ever notice what is the use of a car horn?
I don't simply honk. From my record, I hardly honk. I been driving for about 7 yrs, but I remember the number of honks I've created is less than 10. So I guess I can survive on the road without horn eh? Kekeke
Well, I may not get a new one in the future until I realise I really need it oneday...

Oncall & Postcall

2008-12-21T14:23:00.003+08:00

I decided to get the feel of being oncall for at least once. So I tagged along Dr. Jolyn for her call on friday. Dr. Jolyn bought McD as dinner for both of us. We had lots of talk outside medicine thus we got to know each other much better later. Dr. Jolyn is from a Doctors Family! She jokingly tell me that it is a Indian family tradition to either have a doctor, or lawyer, or engineer from each family otherwise they would not be happy. We laughed out loudly every now and then as we chat. Actually it was going to be the last day I'd see Dr. Jolyn in HSI. She is going on holiday for Christmas for the following week. When she comes back, I'd have gone back to Seremban. I must say, she's a really nice lady to be with. =)

We were chatting all the time when we were on call. She told me a lot of interesting stories. It was fun. Until around 11.00pm, she left me to one of the doctor on call room in CCU to rest and she went back to hers in ward 7B. I didn't have the mood to read so I just lied on the bed and wait. Finally at 12.30am, Dr. Jolyn called and we went down to A&E to see a patient. We stayed there for an hour managing patient then went back to our respective room afterward.

The feeling of being in hospital at night is so..... different. It is so quiet and peaceful and not at all scary. Maybe because it is a new hospital, everything looks so nice and beautiful. I was a little excited even though being exhausted after a day work. Slowly I fell asleep....but only for an hour and I woke up. Throughout the night I was only sleeping intermittently waking up every now and then just to make sure I didn't miss a call. However there was no more call from Dr. Jolyn...

Next day, I got up and washed my face at 8am. Then meet up with Dr. Jolyn. She didn't sleep much as there were other two cases she managed last night. I wasn't able to see because Dr. Jolyn didn't call me. She told me there was nothing much to see and hence she didn't wanna wake me up from sleep. But to be honest, deep in my heart, I rather she had called me. I'm not blaming her and I know she was just being nice. =)

So the on call ended with not much thing to see. At least I get to experience it.
I went home straight and had a bath. Though tired, I was not able to sleep. I wonder what is it like to be at work straight after postcall... I do not think I'll be able to focus postcall. Perhaps it is not a good idea to continue work without proper rest. It could be dangerous should we made wrong judgment when treating patients. However, since the government has decided put houseman on day off after call, I guess the quality of care could be improved to a certain level as less walking zombies are going to manage patients in the hospital. (It is also a good news for many housemen because that means they would get many holidays in a week! Apparently not good to MOs though....sorry for them)

Inspired~~~

2008-12-20T09:52:00.002+08:00

I'd say I'm rather fortunate to meet this bunch of medical doctors. Dr. Lee TC, especially, he's like the best doctor I've ever seen so far. He's a physician. Despite being a specialist, he believes "touch" is very important. It is part of the healing. By touching patient, doctor finds out the problem and at the same time comforts the patient, making patient feel the doctor cares, Sadly, this is what most of the doctors don't practice. I've seen doctors who never wanna lay a hand on patients. Makes me wonder why...

Once, when I reached hospital, I saw Dr. Lee applying moisturizing lotion for an unconscious elderly male patient very carefully and gently. He made sure every inch of the patient's skin is moisturized. That moment I was amazed~!!!! When he saw me, he explained how lotion will prevent skin cracks which is significant for that patient as patient is diabetic. By simple step, diabetic ulcer can be prevented. The way he cares for his patients really amaze me. For many other doctors, such a thing, they would have ordered the nurses to do it. Not only that, he also taught me, even though being a specialist, it does not mean you only do talking, bending over to perform physical examination is also essential as it sets a good example for the young doctors. True enough, I see him examine the patients, checking the vital signs all by himself and the MOs will document his findings. Another thing worth mentioning about him is, he'll come to the ward very much earlier than any other doctors just to go through all the patients' condition before the ward round starts. Just for your information, ward round starts at 8am. But Dr.Lee usually starts doing ward round (which is 745am) when all the others (including me) has not arrived. He is definitely a role model for all the doctors. This is my first time seeing such a responsible doctor.

Dr. Lee is not just a caring responsible good doctor, he's also a very nice superior. I've seen how MOs being badly treated by their specialists. Dr. Lee changed my view on this. He never raise his voice or get angry when MOs bother him with cases. And he's forever willing to drop by to see the referred patients himself. I'm hoping to get doctor like him to work with. It's so pleasant to work with doctors like him. I really look up to Dr. Lee TC. Please pray for this doctor may he be blessed.

Besides having an angel like specialist to be my supervisor during this selective posting in HSI, I also fortunate enough to meet Dr. Kam, who is also from IMU, many years senior of mine, another caring good doctor who is likely to follow Dr. Lee's footsteps, Dr. Lim, another IMU senior, very cool, sometimes abit scary, asked me many questions that I couldn't answer (except for one on spleenomegaly), but still nice doctor, Dr. Jolyn, very gentle and friendly, taught me the most procedures (one of them being chest tube removal involving suturing), also the one I had oncall with, Dr. Aniza, cute petite doctor who gave me chance to do case presentations and didn't scold me even though I didn't do quite well, and all the rest of nurses who allowed me to help them out with taking blood, ABG, etc. All of them are nice people to work with. Also, not to forget Dr. Yoong, tall and thin consultant who never speak mandrin with chinese, he is the most important as he arranged me to be supervised under Dr. Lee's crew. If not I wouldn't have had chance to meet these wonderful people.

I would say, my selective posting in HSI is really meaningful. I really enjoy it!^^

An Enjoyable day....

2008-12-12T21:41:00.003+08:00

Haha...this is the nineth day of selectve posting at HSI. Very happy today as I get to learned some more procedures. Finally I get to do a PR and arterial puncture! I even heard bronchial breathing, it was so obvious (I never get to heard it in Seremban Hosp).
Then it became even more excited when I get the oppoturnity to observe pleural tapping and biopsy. Well, I have gone through my Internal medicine posting, so you would probably think that I should have seen this during the posting earlier. However, frankly, it wasn't easy to get such a chance back in Seremban. There were too many people, even if there is one, I wouldn't get the chance to observe the procedure as close as I get to at HSI. And now, I also learned the proper steps of CVP line insertion. Perhaps I may get to perform one next time if there is a chance.
By now, I have performed a few blood C & S. Now I am quite confident of performing it alrerady.
Well, I must say, Dr. Lee, Dr. Lim, Dr. Jolyn, and Dr. Aniza all have inspired me in some way or another. Learning is more fun now.... Hehe^^

Selective posting

2008-12-02T20:56:00.003+08:00

It's my second day of posting in Hospital Sultan Ismail JB. Initially, I thought it was rather sad to do this posting alone. But now I see the advantages. I get to do ALL procedures (that I am allowed to perform at this stage of my life). Cool~~~~~I get to performed my very first blood culture and sensitivity. something that I might never get to do in Seremban. I also assisted in chest tube removal, pulling the tube out for Dr.Lim. Hehe...it wasn't anything great but still my heart beat faster for that few seconds. (thrilled I guess...haha!)

More to come for the following days.....=)

Back to BloGGGGGGG

2008-11-29T12:00:00.002+08:00

HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEYA!!!! I'm back to blogging (after such a long break). Hehe!

Hmm....after so many months, for sure I should have lotsa things to tell you. But, as I only have goldfish memory serving me, guess telling you guys those stories is a little unlikely (in fact its impossible). Kekeke!

Anyways, I'm currently on elective + selective posting (break). It started in Nov and will be ending in end of Dec. Guess what? I chose to learn Tamil as my elective posting. LOL! That's a weird choice, I know. But somehow, after all the lesson I find it rather interesting. Well.....I had 12 lessons in total. Basically, sm and I will thnk of the questions on the day before lesson and bring it along to the lesson and let Teacher to translate them for us. This is an express class. Hence no grammar was taught (purely translation class). However, if you were to put me in front of a Tamil speaking patient and start conversing, I don't think it's gonna happen. (Because I can't pronounce like the way they do! especially ith the ~RRRR sound, my tongue too short???) Btw, for your knowledge, Teacher is Dr. Sheila's mommy! (so we heard THINGS that ohers don't know about Dr. Sheila) Hahahaha~!!!!!!!!

Now, I'm back in JB. Starting selective posting on Monday. I'm going to Hospital Sultan Ismail (the one that had fungus grown all over places one...now clear ady la of course!). Internal Medicine for a month, hopefully it wouldn't be too boring...

Oh oh! Another thing worth mentioning, I finally been to Jogoya at Starhill galery! SM (who pampers me alot) decided to bring me there when we got to know there is a 50% off for ladies promotion for limited period. I always wanted to try good food and Jogoya's one of them. However I was a little reluctant initially, because SM's been travelling to and fro KL for few days before as his buddies came to KL for a trip. I know how tiring he was so wouldn't want to tire him further. But he insisted we go because we don't get discount at such place very often. Then, off we went. To be honest, I wouldn't know there is such place called Starhill galery if wasn't for Jogoya. Perhaps it was too high a class. People like me wouldn't go such place for a shopping. It's way toooooooooo expensive.

We had two hours to eat in Jogoya. The food has many varieties. But one thing was not good enough which is the Haagen Daz ice cream took us nearly one hour to get. It was too hard to scoop. Tiny people like me especially ladies took 20 mins to scoop! Poor SM, stood there for so long, too bad I couldn't keep him company (because there was cheesy oyster on the table waiting for SM). When he got the ice crea, it was already 920pm. Time for us to leave. We scooped and swallowed the ice cream quickly and took our leave. And finally got back into our car and head back to Seremban. That marks my first experience to Jogoya. Big thanks to SM, the sweetest gentleman of all. Hehe!

2008-05-04T17:58:00.002+08:00

Btw..........the weather is killing me.......X___________X

2008-05-04T17:53:00.002+08:00

Ok lar...since my blog is soooooooooo outdated. I now post a few words to make sure it's still 'active'. Kekeke XP

What to write? No clue at all....i shud stop here since i have exam coming in four days time, i shall resume my revision. Hehehe~~!!! Sorry lar for those who's expecting to hear some news or story from me...maybe next time k? Ciaoz~

2008-05-04T17:52:00.001+08:00

Fuyoh~ this blog is sooooooooooooo dusty!

2008-03-02T12:23:00.002+08:00

You left but didn't say goodbye.

I remember first time seeing you two years ago. You were very timid. But I thought you were cute, sweet and innocent. In fact, you are. This is what everyone says about you.

The first time I chatted with you, you told me you loved him very much. I know. I know both of you were deeply in love. But I never expect to be that much...

The second last time I saw you, you were sad. You were troubled. Both of you were in pain, miserable...I could have help by talking to both of you. But I didn't...I thought you were able to solve it out. I was wrong...

And finally, the last time I saw you, your beautiful eyes were tightly closed. You gave no respond to the surrounding. We called your name and asked you to hold on...but you never replied...

We stood by you. We travelled to and fro the hospital everyday. He's broken down. But with the tiniest hope we wish you'd talk to us again. We waited patiently, hoping that doctor will announce you're finally safe and stable, going to recover soon. But it never happened that way. All that we heard was "the brain is dying...heart is failing....be prepared..."

Seeing you lying flat, deeply in sleep on the bed, we didn't want to give up hope. We continue to call out your name. Go around praying for you, pleading you to come back to us. Still, you did not hear us.

Yesterday afternoon, we heard the news that we wouldn't wanna hear most. You gave up and left. Leaving him alone on this earth. He broke down instantly. Asking why did you leave him and how is he gonna live without you. He loved you so much you knew that. He couldn't take it, couldn't believe it had happened. Neither do us...

My dearest Jenney, I liked you the first time I saw you. We always wanted you to be one of us. Now that you are gone, you cheerful spirit will still be around us. I asked that you keep him strong, give him courage to live on. It's the living that will bear the pain. You're forever part of our memory...

Rest in peace...

2008-02-14T22:35:00.002+08:00

Back in JB again...gonna have two weeks break before new semester starting. First posting ==>orthopedics. All about bones and muscles??? Not very interesting...?

The weather is melting me down...=(

Anyways it's good to be home again. =) Happy chinese new year and happey valentine's day to all of u... n_n

Baby Love by Nichole Scherzinger

2008-02-10T00:04:00.000+08:00

I luv this song~!!! so sweet~~~ n_n

C207 Internal Medicine posting group 'union' dinner ^^

2008-02-02T09:42:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Dear Karen....huGzzz

2008-02-02T09:17:00.000+08:00

The gurls

The guys

Nice looking food

Yay...Happy Bday sweetie~!!!

Thanks for being such a caring fren =)

2008-02-02T09:06:00.000+08:00

A fine morning...Today is Saturday. I woke up finding myself having a mixed feelings.

Holiday starts today. CNY is coming in less than a week time. I'm happy about this as I get to go back home and have reunion dinner with mom and dad and my little brother and my lovely sister and my notty doggy and my timid bunny.

I feel abit empty at the same time. Not sure of the cause but I guess I haven't got over what had happened to me earlier. But I'm sure I'm getting better and better. =)

Anyways, I managed to perform two venepunctures within this week. Not very successful but I got some blood out of the teen boy. Wuahaha! Poor thing, I know how painful it is....so sorry....=(

And another delighting thing that happened to me, I got a very nice senior doctor to guide me on a few cases. Thank you very much doc! *He's good looking!!* LoLZ oppz! n_n

I'm waiting for my parents to come and pick me up. Can't wait to go back home.... ^^

2008-01-25T13:10:00.000+08:00

Went to the ward alone today.
Checked out all four wards and found no recognisable face.
I'm over hardworking I suppose. hahaXD
Wanted to leave but saw a case file and started talking to *** (pardon me but patient's details are meant to be confidential *and i supposed det detail includes the gender as well*). ***was a very pleasant person. Got some inspiration from *** after talking to ***. Life is not that miserable as I suppose. SO much more to do, to learn.

Following that, I drove alone all the way to Jusco (for 15 minutes) juz to pay the water bill and buy stamps. I wanna keep my mind occupied. That I will not realise how slow time passes.

Absent minded, I left my car key in the car. Darn!
Luckily I was able to find my spare key. Thanks to Seleen for giving me a ride. ^^ *muax!*

Got class in the afternoon...gotta run to uni soon. Today's tbl is about haemoptysis. Haven't read a bit. Must pay 101% attention in class later.

2008-01-24T18:07:00.000+08:00

Another episode of heart breaking. I wonder if my heart is still fit to sustain my vulnerable life.

Sadness is overwhelming. My heart is bleeding ...nothing can stop the bleeding. Perhaps this is what I deserved. God has finally taught me yet another lesson. Is it too late for me to repent now? Too late to say sorry...Only God knows.

Time is all I need to recover...I wonder how long it will be...

I'M BACK~~~!!!!!!!!!

2008-01-10T11:02:00.000+08:00

After so many days and nights, I finally remember I have got a blog. XD

It's been long. I'm getting used to the busy routine. In fact, I must admit that I kinda like internal medicine posting. It's soooooo different. So much more interesting than other posting even though it's a more hectic one.

It's the first time I feel like I'm learning to become a doctor. Doctors from this department are all nice people. When I say nice people, I mean they're so willing, in fact very enthusiastic, to teach us (the future doctors) and so kind to the patients. I just like it here. ^-^

I got Bs and Cs for the previous posting exams. Kinda disappointed but I've been told that it's rather (in fact very difficult) to get As once I enter clinical phase. At least I've tried my best and this is all that I deserved.

It's holiday today! Yo~hoo~~! Time for recharging. =)

2007-12-06T12:55:00.000+08:00

Dear friends, (esp to Sarah, Pui Fun, and Stephanie)
I'm fine now. But surgery posting is exhausting. Exam coming in a wk time. I have no idea what and how to prepare for it. Clueless at all....can only keep praying that I'll make it through....

How are u all? Miss u all.....

2007-11-10T15:43:00.000+08:00

1. My ex is: a male. duh~
2. I am listening to: emptiness 3
. Maybe I should:do my stupiak case summaries
4. I love: dogs *they're loyal frenz
5. My best friends: are the BEsTEST
6. I don’t understand: medicine n' yet m studying medicine
7. I lose: many things in life but in return i learn experience
8. People say: i'm short so what?!!=.=
9. The meaning of my screen name is: my nick lar
10. Love is: passion, loyalty, honesty, I-care, sweet, and heartbreaking
11. Somewhere, someone:is dozing off like i care=.=
12. I will always: try to be calm but many times before I realize Ive started screaming
13. Forever: is never real...
14. I never want to: .....dunno lar
(no.15 is missing???)
16. When I wake up in the morning: late=> *jump* SHIT!!!
17. I get annoyed at: having pms >”<
18. Parties are: not all the time fun….it depends.
19. My dog is: hyperactive Jack Russell
2 0. Kisses are the worst when: it’s “scented” eeewwwwwwww
21. Today I am: feeling lousy
22. Tonight I will: err.....no idea lar
23. Tomorrow I will: aiya....tmr only think lar
24. I really want: to shed some extra pounds but m not fat though
25. When I looked at myself in the mirror today I: smile and get amazed by this beautiful God’s creation *grin*
26. I will drive my car: ……..what kinda sentence is this???
27. A word that rhymes with “PARK” is: MARK
28. Bright or Dark Room?: I don’t understand this =.=
29. If I’m alone in a room with two beds, I: choose one and sleep on it??? =.=
30. The last thing I said to someone was: don’t peep while I blog!!!

2007-11-10T14:38:00.000+08:00

Yucks~! Life sux!

Once in a while, life really does sux...

I hate it!

I think i've got into real trouble this time.

Gotta sort things out asap.

Why certain things happen?
Only God knows the answer.
If i were given another chance
I wouldn't want it to happen.
It's horrible.
I feel like sh*t. Darn.

2007-11-08T21:33:00.000+08:00

There's so much I wanted to say...

Yet

There's none I can express with words.

Didn't do well in fam med. I know I haven't put in enough effort while preparing for exam.
Blame it on myself. >"<

Surgery posting is interesting but seriously tiring.
God's grace is sufficient to pull me through I believe.

I'm losing faith....
Holy spirit is working in me.
I need God's grace and mercy...

Life is never easy.

2007-09-12T13:44:00.000+08:00

IMU clinical school seremban is definitely a very interesting place.

Life has become different ever since I entered IMU clinical school seremban here...

Though feeling tired and exhausted everyday, I feel happy to be at this place.

2007-08-29T10:52:00.000+08:00

假期將尽, 我的心情也開始隨之轉換.

這個假期沒白過, 我對自己的了解又更深; 對自己想追逐的目標也都更清楚了. 更成熟了.

還是喜歡用母語來表達自己, 更貼切. 不過, 說穿了, 其實是自己對其他語言的掌握不夠好吧!哈!

我喜歡歲月的洗滌, 卻不得不害怕它侵蝕人類青春的能力......

新學期, 讓人興奮. 有機會學習更多.

可是, 我不得不承認心理頭有些許莫名的懼怕. 或許是因為肩上扛的担子越來越重了.......

無論如何, 必須堅持到底才不辜負爸媽的期望.

Convocation???!!!

2007-08-21T10:14:00.001+08:00

The first time I heard that I was going to have a convo after sem5, I was rather amused. Well, we are definitely not considered as graduate yet as we only completed the first half of our course.

When we got the invitation from IMU, dad and mom were rather excited (though they've been told their daughter hasn't graduated). And hence, I had no choice but to attend the ceremony together with my parents.

On 17th august 2007, we had a rehearsal in which we learnt how to walk SLOWLY and GRACEFULLY...in MPH 6. (I couldn't stop laughing when we did so...tsktsk...) We also collected our rope (no mortar borad and hood because, again, we aren't graduates!) on the same day.

Finally on the event day (18th august), I arrived at Sheraton Subang at 7am. Yes 7am!!!! We were told to reach there by 7am to have a final rehearsal in the hall (Mr. Paul used the word "must", so I dare not be late). But it turned out we only have our rehearsal at 8am....arghhhh....(I didn't even have enough sleep~~!!!!) But anyway, rehearsal was fine and the ceremony started at 10am sharp and ended at 12am by singing national anthem (the original and traditional Negaraku of course).

The only thing that matter was making my parents proud by watching their little girl go onto the stage to receive her cert (though it's only a "completion of phase I") from the Chancellor. That is the moment. I could feel my dad's happiness when he gave me my favourite sunflowers. Again, I promise myself I must must do my best for the coming days. I wanna make them proud again.

Thank you, O' Lord.

For everything I do, you are there for me.

Thank you, O'Lord.

For when I'm lost, you found me.

Thank you, O'Lord.

For your love is unfailing.

O'Lord,

Thank You...

My first COOKIES~~~

2007-08-13T10:55:00.000+08:00

Holiday is the time when I pick up new skill (p.s when I'm in the mood. XD).

This time.........

Baking cookies~~~!!! Weee~~~

Moist Chocolate Pudding Cake

2007-08-09T11:09:00.000+08:00

HoHoHo~~! I baked my first chocolate cake!!! Aahaha!

Well...seriously this is nothing to boast about. But I thought since this is my FIRST TIME and my very first time baking a cake SUCCESSFULLY. SO yea, I think I'm proud of my achievement, something I wanna share with my fellow friends about. Hehheh~

Hmm...it's a taste of satisfaction. I have a feeling that I'll bake better next time. Keke~=P

Hmm~~it's so creamy so sinfully rich in chocolate taste...

2007-08-02T12:49:00.001+08:00

You Are a Brownie

Decadent and intense, you aren't for the weakhearted.
Those who can deal with your strong flavor find out how sweet you really are.

What Dessert Are You Most Like?

2007-08-02T12:36:00.000+08:00

You Should Drive a BMW

Refined and classy, you want a car that looks rich... and goes fast!

What Sports Car Should You Drive?

Well...I've always wanted to drive a BMW!!! XD

2007-07-23T13:41:00.000+08:00

Jesus asked for FORGIVENESS for the people who nailed him on the cross AT THE MOMENT when He's being nailed....

How do I react when someone treated me unfairly?

I figured....

I'm not sure of the answer

but

I know

it's never like the way how Jesus reacted....

MoRe pix~~~ =P

2007-07-22T10:56:00.000+08:00

ReDaNg trip~~

2007-07-20T11:39:00.000+08:00

Paparazzi shots =P
BeaCh boyz & gurlz??? LoL

Before snorkelling

A very friendly autie we met on boat

Sammy Cheng & Ricky Ren been here before!!!

Jetty of Marine Park (a random guy at d back posing)
The resort that we are not staying at. XD

Scenery
SunRise....
DEAD corals....

2007-07-09T14:55:00.001+08:00

Dearest Irene,

Hey gurl, two and a half years passed like seconds. You are another true friend of mine. I remember you giving me the prayer paper which taught me how to pray for God's strength to handle stress...then was our first EOS correct? I was so touched by the moments you encouraged and prayed for me whenever I was down. You have brought me through a lot of hard times...

Gurl, I miss those times when we have heart-to-heart conversations. We talked alot about Jesus, our Saviour. And no doubt, you've taught me alot about Christianity. You're one of the few that I can share my inner thoughts with. Thank you gurl for everything. =)

Time flies. There isn't a way for us to rewind. Look forward, and I know some years later I'll see you again down the road. There is no goodbye forever.Continue to glow and shine brightly for Christ, Irene. For a friend like you, I'll remember Jesus' love....

Faith is not about seeing but believe....

2007-07-09T14:41:00.000+08:00

Dearest Stef,

We've been staying together for two years. I remember first time seeing you, I sensed the 'coldness' in you. Haha. But after getting know you, I knew I was wrong. You're such a 'warm' person. So caring and loving. You treat every friend with true heart. You have taught me what is real friendship. You are a 'care' person do you know that? =)

I must take this opportunity to thank your Mommy, too. She's such a nice lady. So nice towards us all. And thanks a billion for the delicious sinfully-rich-choc-cake...I just LOVE it!!! (p/s: Auntie, you really don't look like Stef's mom but more like her elder sister. ^^)

Hey gurl, it was really hard for me to say Goodbye and I know how hard it is for you to do so, too. I realised how much we cherish our friendship the moment you gave me the book (and the beautiful box). =) It's gonna be hard for you because not only you will not see me that frequent again and also you need to readjust yourself in a totally new 'environment'. But I believe you can adjust well. Plus, I think I've got ya another nice housemate. Hehe ^^

Just wanna say, you're someone who has made my life different. 'Thank you' is just not enough to tell you how much I appreciate for everything you have done for me. I know God has blessed me with a true friend which is YOU. Do not stop believing. God is always there for you. He loves you, stef! Keep praying and stand strong in FAITH ya?

All da Best, sweetie.... *hugs*

2007-06-30T22:17:00.000+08:00

Finally....my time in BJ IMU is ending soon. Thought I should pen down my feelings after this two and a half year living in BJ.

I remember when I first got my offer letter from IMU, I was half excited and half disappointed. I applied for August 2004 intake yet I got an offer for February 2005 intake. But I consoled myself at least I've managed to get a seat in IMU. Parents were very happy for the offer I've got though. For the simple reason their daughter has got the chance to become the first doctor in the family even among the relatives.

After few search, I eventually settled down at B-14-8. At first, Aida, LC, and Irene were my housemates. But after one semester, Aida moved out and Steffanie moved in. Life changed abit ever since then (because my bestie, Aida, "left me" *sob*). I felt abit "lonely" sometimes as I always liked to "invade" Aida's room and "kacau" her. Hehe!

But soon, I got "new company" at B-14-8 ==> Steffanie. She became my "target" after few months of staying together. But I always feel good after chatting with Stef. This futsal lady is just so sweet. =)

Irene dear is so soft spoken and innocent. I can talk to her anything. I always worried if she'll be bullied by other people because she's so "soft". But I like talking to her. She is a good listener and she's non-judgemental. “I enjoyed time spent with you discussing about Christianity”.

IMU life wouldn't be that good without Aida. She's "the best I have in IMU"(haha). Always so supportive and understanding. Soon she's leaving to UK. I wonder how my life in Seremban is going to be like without her by my side. Even though it's hard, I will try to be strong on my own (Luckily I have Jesus. Hehe) and wish her all the best for future. "Keep in touch, my dear".

Besides studying, Taekwondo is another part of my life in IMU. Been through alot and learnt alot of things by organising events for Taekwondo. I have become more mature and considerate by working together with the bunch of Taekwondo "kaki". They are a group of fun and "noisy" people (keke). Haha! But I enjoyed the time spent with them either during training or tourney.

PBL, CSU, KKB, Hosp Tuanku Jaafar,etc. I slowly develop interest for them as I sailed through the course. I realised actually they are very useful learning tools other than studying lecture notes. Well, many may disagree and say it’s a waste of time (especially PBL). But my opinion is, once you got the correct learning issues and look up the related information, you’ll definitely benefit a lot from it. Hospital visits and bedside teachings are sessions that worth spending time and effort attending because that is when we get the chance to put our theory into practice.

SAD Charmaine is so sweet and charming. She is HOT (especially after slimming down)! Nice tanned skin she has (even Jen was tempted to ask her how she got her nice tanned skin). She’s been helpful in all the events we have organised. “Thank you, Charmaine!”

Komanwel CG, my family at BJ. “Thanks for all the prayers and support. I have so much good time with you all. If weren’t you, I wouldn’t have grown so much in Christianity. Sarah, Philip, Kenneth, Richard, Pui Fun, Chris, Kiryu, Troy, Lily & Eugene, Michelle, Kay Teck, Lynn Xuan, Jui Jien and Sing Yee, thank you for giving me so many sweet memories at BJ. I am going to miss all of you and I promise I shall come back and visit IMU CG whenever I have chance”. *Big Bear Hug for everyone*

DUMC, at where I accepted Christ. Pastor Daniel, senior pastor, his preaching always enlightens me. I would love to come back whenever there is a chance.

So many memories…. so many friends.... I feel so blessed.

I know I have His guarding angel by my side. I can feel His presence and the love He showers over me. It's so joyful to know that I am His child.

Good bye IMU BJ….

Here I come IMU Seremban!!! (^^)v

2007-06-30T00:26:00.000+08:00

I thank Him for bringing me through EOS 5. Once again, I experienced His grace....

My celebrity look-alikes

2007-06-14T23:30:00.000+08:00

Wah~I look like them??? I think it's d makeup....it does wonder. LoLx.

2007-06-12T18:06:00.000+08:00

Some people might think that the transformation within me is too .... dramatic.

"What happened to her? "

"What is she thinking???"

"Is she the Joan that we used to know?"

"She's been brainwashed."

"She is pretending to be a good girl."

"Silly girl..."

Well...

All this doesn't matter. Because being a believer is subjected to criticism. Because we are different from the World.

Being a wretch I was, I finally found Jesus. I confessed and repented my sin and felt His overflowing grace embrace me. He took my hands and told me that I'm forgiven and now I'm a whole new person, given a chance to become a righteous and holy person.

He is my Lord, my Saviour, my Redeemer.

I can do everything through Christ who strengthens me.

Everyday I grow to know Him more and I discover His great love and great plan for me. I know I am called for a mission on earth. God has designed me uniquely to carry out His plan in this world. I finally found my purpose of living. And finally I'll enter His eternal kingdom.
There is nothing in this world that is better than Jesus....

Yes....I have changed....dramatically but for a very GOOD REASON.

2007-06-11T20:41:00.000+08:00

I had a dream....
one that I had never had before....

Was reading the Endocrine notes by Dr.Nilesh when I slowly drifted away to dreamland....

A few of my M1o5 batch mates were chatting in a hall. The conversation was cheerful as there was laughter heard every now and then. There I was talking to a friend (can't remember who), feeling relaxed and delighted (as if I had finish EOS).

Then came this friend (again, I don't remember who), running happily towards me and with a big smile on the face, the friend announced to me a news that I considered it the best news I ever heard ever since I entered IMU.

The friend said:" Jo, you have already obtained an 'A' for overall even before you sit for EOS 5 because you did so extremely well in all your in-course-assessment".

YooHoo~!!!(I was so EXCITED that I woke up from the nap right away)

Aiyak....a sense of disappointment filled my heart.....then I realised it was only .....a dream. (Now I regretted being too excited then...I could have remained in that wonderful dream for a little longer....maybe there would have been a celebration or something....=( Ok I think that's enough. Back to reality. >.<)

It reminded me that our CG discussed about dreaming of study and exam the other day....(but too bad I didn't manage to share this dream because it only came to me so many days after that.It is my first time having dream that is related to study, and it is definitely the best dream I ever had in my IMU life so far...)

Yea, I know it is impossible. It can never happen. *sigh* Even if I score full marks for all in-course, I will only get 25% out of 100%. That 75% is reserved for EOS. So I can never score an 'A' without sitting for EOS 5. Despite it was just a dream, still....that dream made my day. Somehow motivated me to study harder so I can get good result and make my God proud. ^.^

2007-06-10T18:33:00.000+08:00

I guess sometimes it is GOOD to be tagged...(so that I have a reason to blog >.<)

5 Things Found In My Bag:
*(my cute little mini)water bottle
* milk teddy black wallet
* mobile phone (it has become a necessity nowadays)
* tissue paper (this is a must-must-have for me)
* (occasionally) umbrella

5 Things Found In My Purse:
* ID card (the pathetic looking Mycard....)
* Driving licence (expired in 2009)
* IMU Calender (2007)(along with the 8 outcomes for medical programmed by IMU)
* Medical card * plasters (cut yourself? come to me)

5 favorite things in my room:
* study desk (it's been with me since sec1. 1/3 occupied by books and table lamp though)
* radio (how can one live life without music???)
* mattres (sadly I don't have a proper bed)
* two bookshelves (like a mini library explains why I prefer studying at home.HeHe)
* laptop (hmm...it connects me to the outer world)

5 Things I've Always Wanted To Do:
* travelling
* play piano like a PRO
* join dance class
* diving
* shop without second thought

5 Things I'm Currently Into:
* REVISION FOR EOS 5!!!
* seeking God's word (this thing I'll want to continue doing till the last day of my life)
* swimming (shape my body and get rid of STRESS)
* Heroes the drama series
* shopping for BOOKS (but I never finish reading...okok...some of them got lar)

5 FRIENDS TO TAG===> YOU!!! who is reading this and haven't done this. XD

Abide in God's word

2007-06-03T21:14:00.000+08:00

I have learnt that in order to do so, I must do the three things below:

1. Accept the Bible as authority.
This means in everything that we do, we refer to the Bible as our guide.

2. Assimilate the truth.
Bible is God's breath and hence the solid truth, it is righteous and good for character building. Therefore it is necessary to adopt a life that is lived according to the Bible. In order to do so, we must receive, read, research, remember, and reflect the Word.

3. Apply the principle.
Assimilate is not complete without putting the Word into practice. Thus, be the 'doer of the Word', live it out in our daily life.

By doing this everyday, we will be transformed by the Truth.

2007-06-03T20:25:00.000+08:00

Was reading Disease of the Oropharynx when David called. He and Hean Wai were already waiting at Sri Petaling LRT station. I was asked if they could come over and pick me up first.

So after five minutes, we met up in front of IMU and went back to wait for others to come and join us.

Around 245pm, everyone was here. Off we go, heading towards Aileen's house in Klang. We then only realised NONE of us know the exact way to her house. *sweat* But luckily, with See Yan and Aun Li in the car, we managed to get there without getting lost. (Good job!Gurls.*pat*)

It was the first time I been to Aileen's house. It was nice and cozy except the atmosphere was rather....different.

I supposed Aileen a had shed so much tear so much so that her eyes were very much swollen. Other than being weary, she still acted like her usual self, the usual soft spoken, humorous lady that she's always known for (at least to me, she is!). I'm glad that she's alright or is she? Anyway, I hope she is.

There is perhaps no way I can understand how it feels like to have a loved one lost. Life is short, indeed. Before we can regret, make sure we cherish everyone around us, family, friends....consider their needs, make time for them and stop giving excuses because you're too busy earning money or so, be kind and gentle, be patient, most importantly have love for one another.

With deepest sympathy and condolences, take care, Aileen dear....will keep you and family in prayers. God be with you....

2007-05-31T21:16:00.000+08:00

2007-05-27T19:16:00.000+08:00

Oh heart of mine,

why must you stray?

From one so fair you run away

And one more time you have to pay

The heaviness of needless shame

Oh heart of mine, come back home

You've been too long out on your own

And He's been there all along

Watching for you down the road

So come home running

His arms are open wide

His name is Jesus

He understands

He is the answer

You are looking for

So come home running

Just as you are

Oh child of God so dearly loved

And ransomed by the Savior's blood

And called by name, "daughter" and "son"

Wrapped in the robe of righteousness

-Come Home Running by Chris Tomlin-

2007-05-27T18:58:00.000+08:00

Fatigue....

I'm exhausted.

Preparing for exam is always the last thing I wanna do on earth.

But I know there is no escape. God told me I have to go through all these to become better....better for the advancement of His kingdom.

I shall rejoice, though I'm worn out, because I'm part of God's mighty plan. I will stay focused and see His plan and do my best to play my role well....

M-y.... pre-cious....

2007-05-24T21:57:00.000+08:00

Stethoscope??? (ofcourse lar cost me two hundred plus wor ~.~)

I started to luv Macleod very much when I was doing MSK.(and I finally wrapped it up after using it fer almost two and a half years. Doesn't really make any difference ady rite?lolx!)

p/s:IMU folks...believe it or not, this is d exam questions source....

*drools*

This choc is so good~~~I luv it!!! But I don't see anywhere selling it one...I want to eat some more ....*sniff*

*to be continued....

2007-05-14T20:18:00.000+08:00

Feeling physically and mentally worn out.

Woke up at 730am. How i wished it was Saturday morning so that I could stay at home for another two more days before I leave home again. Arghhh...feel so heavy hearted....

This year, mother's day falls on 13th May, Sunday. The timing was just right as I would have finished my in-course assessment for CNS by 11th May, Friday. Hence, my sister and I decided to go home and celebrate it for my wonderful mother together with the rest of the family members.

Immediately right after the exam, I reached vista at about 1pm, I started packing and got myself ready before my sister came and picked me up at vista. We left vista at around 2pm.

As we started on our journey, I prayed quietly in my heart for safety. My sister was driving while I talked to her all the time just to ensure that she's kept awake. The journey was smooth and we arrived home safe and sound after four hours of nonstop driving.

Dad and mom welcomed us at the gate and we gave each other a big hug. That little brother of mine, as usual, stayed in his computer room, dota-ing. (I never see him being excited to see us home and sometimes I do wonder if he ever feel happy to see us back home.) Anyway, mom was delighted when she received the bouquet of carnations we bought for her on the way back. I just love to see her smile. =)

After showering, we went out for dinner at a nice restaurant. Food was great but most importantly, we were able to spend time and update each other about life events. Everyone is fine. Thank God for his blessing upon my whole family.

Dad and mom both have lost weight. I know they have been working very hard to get money in order to support us. It's heartbreaking for me looking at them, getting more white hair and wrinkles, still doing all the hard work at this age. The mixed feeling within me is indescribable....

I love you all, Mom and Dad.

I dedicate this to you, my dearest Mommy:

Mom, you're so loving and caring;

Because of you, I learn gentleness,

Because of you, I learn forgiveness,

Because of you, I learn kindness,

Because of you, I learn patience.

Mom, you always listen,

And you give me comfort in time of need;

You are my great pillar,

The one I lean on when I can no longer stand on my feet.

Mom, how can I possibly thank you enough

for all the sacrificies you've made?

How can I ever repay your kindness?

I figured that I can only pray for you.

Oh Heavenly Father,

I ask,

Please pour down your blessing

unto this wonderful lady

now and forever....

Amen.

2007-05-12T18:50:00.000+08:00

CNS was over....

Yes....God is gracious towards me...He brought me through another paper yet again. I feel blessed.

P/S: Thanks to all my CG members for the prayer ya...so nice to have u people around to support me. *Hugs*

Technically speaking, I have finished the 9 system courses. ( I don't consider Heath Issues as a system course lar =P )

So...it's time to prepare for my end of semester exam lor....

2007-05-09T18:59:00.000+08:00

Hmm....This is unusual...

I'm having CNS exam on this Friday (izit one or two days from now??? ), yet I'm not feeling stressed as I always did before (considering the fact that I haven't even finished studying the notes *stunned*) !!!!

Weird....

(I shud b sutdying ..........................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

(Also, today's catered food is good!!! Hey....It only occurs once in a blue moon okayz.....lolx)

Made to worship by Chris Tomlin

2007-05-08T14:35:00.000+08:00

Before the day
Before the light
Before the world revolved around the sun

God on high
Stepped down into time
And wrote the story of His love for everyone

He has filled our hearts with wonder
So that we always remember

*Chorus* You and I were made to worship

You and I are called to love

You and I are forgiven and free

You and I embrace surrender

You and I choose to believe

You and I will see who we were meant to be

All we are
And all we have
Is all a gift from God that we receive

Brought to life
We open up our eyes
To see the majesty and glory of the King

He has filled our hearts with wonder
So that we always remember

*Chorus*

And even the rocks cry out
And even the Heavens shout
At the sound of His holy name

So let every voice sing out
And let every knee bow down
He is worthy of all our praise

*Chorus*

2007-05-06T21:11:00.000+08:00

The reason for everything is for him.

"Everything comes from God alone.

Everything lives by his power,

and everything is for his glory."

-Romans 11:36 (LB)-

Worship is far more than praising, singing, and praying to God.

Worship is a lifestyle of enjoying God, loving him, and giving ourselves to be used for his purposes.

-adopted from Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren-

Indeed, I am born to this world to please you, Oh God, because we are all your creation.

I wanna worhsip you, Oh God, in every aspect of life. Worshipping you will be my life, not just part of it.

I wanna bring glory to your name, Oh God. Everything I do, every part of my life, I place them before you as an offering.

Oh Lord, I am sold out for You....

2007-05-06T21:09:00.000+08:00

Yesterday wuz Pastor Daniel's bday!!!

"Happy Birthday Pastor~~~@/~~~" =)

2007-05-04T16:27:00.000+08:00

I miss e-jay.........n many other "pharmies".....Hope ur all njoying holiday....*hugz*

2007-05-02T20:28:00.000+08:00

"The world is fading away, along with everything it craves. But if you do the will of God, you will live forever."

-1 John 2:17 (NLT)-

Yuyumort 20@/~~~

2007-05-01T21:00:00.000+08:00

"Happy Birthday to U

Happy Birthday to U

Happy Birthday to Kiryu

Happy Birthday to U..."

28th/04/2007

Yummie~~~~this is chocolate indulgence from Secret Recipe

(my favo!!!^^)

(pay attn to crz...)

My lovely family in vista~~~(but where m I in d pix???)

Haha....here I am~~~

Our kid is 20 yrs old now~~~=P

Kiryu look at d camera lar........=.=

Okie...first piece must keep fer d birday boy....

Aww....Lily is so sweet isn't she???

Now Kenneth's turn to cut d rest of the cake....notice d two gentlemen (==>troy & crz) at d back? Tsk Tsk

Three lovely ladies =)

And later...............

we went to McD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(AGAIN~~~~~)

@/~~God Bless Kiryu~

*The End*

2007-04-30T14:27:00.000+08:00

Attended the talk on doing residency in US.

USMLE is going to cost me a BOMB!!!

Contradictory, I'm inspired more to do USMLE. Perhaps God is calling....I have a mission awaiting ....

BUT.....

Right now is to pass EOS 5 first. Focus! Focus!!!!.....................

2007-04-28T17:17:00.000+08:00

I am Blessed because God is my LORD....

Kenneth's 21st Bday celebration

2007-04-25T21:48:00.000+08:00

CG family

First, we bought a cake and gave Kenneth a surprised celebration.

HappY 21st BiRthDay 2 U Kenneth!!!

Funny Face~~

Random~~

After eating the cake,

We went to HoHo steamboat at Sri Petaling for dinner.

Eugene is boiling an egg...

Silly Face~~LoL

Fun looks very tiny oh....

CRZ's snake pose**lolz

YeeMee~~

L-R:Mark, Richard, Daniel

Wut r two of u doin~~~=.=

All da Gurls say CHEEZE~~~

Kenneth got so many people celebrate for ur bday oh...happy?^^

Guess wut???

After steamboat, we went to....

McD!!!!

to eat McFlurry....LoL!!!(Kenneth's treat wor)

Kenneth, may God continue to shower you with His love and blessing as you walk the journey of life. Stay strong and faithful in Him!!! *hugz*

*The End*

2007-04-24T20:33:00.000+08:00

People saY....

"When you educate a boy, you educate a PERSON.

but....

when you educate a girl, you educate a FAMILY."

True enough?...................

2007-04-23T21:15:00.000+08:00

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

~TaGgEd~

2007-04-20T18:30:00.000+08:00

Notti Steph steph~~~ U tagged me ar...U RELI TAGGED ME ARR!!!=.=
Neways...hope u njoy reading d facts & by doin' so knowing a little bit more about me~~~ weeeeee~~

Here it goes...

'Each one starts out by telling 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write (in their own blog) 6 weird things as well and state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave each of them a comment letting them know you tagged them and the cycle goes on.'

By da way…recalling d weird things about me is real challenge fer me eh…(bcoz m not weird at all lerr…correct onot? CORRECT…. XD )

Err…..where to start ar….*scratch head*

K lar…

#1 : I GIGGLE out of sudden

#2 : I LOVE Ladychoice peanut butter with grape stripe & I eat it ON ITS OWN. Yummie!!! XD

#3 : I practice Taekwondo

#4 : I bite my FINGER when I’m in deep thought (I know it’s dirty but I couldn't help it!)

#5 : I pout my lips to touch my NOSE TIP when I’m bored

#6 : I often trip while WALKING~~~ (seriously M det clumsy…in da process of improving tho’) LoL

Looking at d stuff det I’ve put down, I must admit det m NOT weird at all…. (agree not? ) LoLz….(p/s: I actually took few days to OBSERVE MYSELF to discover these few weird things about myself. XD)

Oukayz…now it’s my turn to tag people!!!! Muahahaha~~~ Da lucky ones are…
Sarah Ong
Philip Ong
FunFun
Kiryu
CRZ
Troy (ahaha!!! Time to update ur blog lar!!! XD )

Have fun blogging!!! =P Lolzzzzzzzzzzz

A piece of thought

2007-04-17T14:58:00.000+08:00

"Men...

are born with

TWO EYES

but with

ONE TONGUE,

in order that they should

SEE twice as much as they SAY."

2007-04-16T20:10:00.000+08:00

YUm~yUm~~

2007-04-15T18:40:00.000+08:00

I love to look into the mirror...

The person in the mirror never fail to amaze me...

No...it's not the physical appearance that i'm talking about here...

I'm just amazed by God's ability...

His ability to create such a complicated living creature...

And... it's a creation according to His image...

I'm AMAZED....

2007-04-15T18:29:00.000+08:00

Oh god...I'm nerdified!!!!

God plz giv me PEACE.....amen.

To my dearest anatomy lecturers....

2007-04-12T21:12:00.000+08:00

Dr.Reddy, cud u use d laser pointer when u wanna show us d parts of d brain u r mentioning during lecture? (I seriously kenot figure out which 'upper part' or 'lower part' det u're tokin abt lar...=.=)

Dr.Nilesh, cud u slow down ur speed when u tok? I noe u're trying to transfer as much knowledge as possible to us but.... (I really kenot catch up v u...=( & my memory space very little oni niah...*sob*)

Dr.JPJ....U're damn COOL!!!! (like u da best! hehe^^)

NONE BUT JESUS

2007-04-09T20:40:00.000+08:00

In the quiet

In the stillness

I know that You are God

In the secret of Your presence

I know there I am restored

When You call

I won't refuse

Each new day

Again I'll choose

There is NO ONE ELSE for me

None but Jesus

Crucified to set me free

Now I live to bring praise

In the chaos

In confusions

I know You're sovereign still

In the moment of my weakness

You give me grace to do Your will

When You call

I won't delay

This my song

Through all my days

All my delight is in You, Lord

All of my hope

All of my strength

All my delight is in You, Lord

Forever more

2007-04-08T19:11:00.000+08:00

He is Mighty

He is Gracious

He is Awesome

He is Gentle

Most importantly...

He shed his blood fer me & washed away my sin

Because He Loves Me =)

Oh Lord

Thank You for the Cross

Mamaking 06042007

2007-04-08T18:39:00.000+08:00

Guess which one is Philip^_^(eh..those who noe him plz do not attempt this oukay...=.=)

Troykid & Crz

Daniel & Richard (mamak guy at d back =P)

Big family^_^

2007-04-02T11:09:00.000+08:00

Thank God fer his mercy upon my grandma. M glad she's fine. =)

I'M SORRY...

2007-03-27T15:11:00.000+08:00

I woke up at 7a.m.. I've got an unread message.

"Good morning gurl! Dad's on d way to KL now."

Yep! Dad and mum (usually when dad comes to KL, mom will never be left behind alone)are coming!
So, excited, I replied

"Gud mornin dad! Drive safely. =) "

So, I went to checked the water tap. Thank God! D water supply is back. I bathed.
As usual, I read God's words and prayed.

At around 10 a.m. , Dad called. He and mom had arrived and were waiting downstairs. I quickly get changed and rushed down to join them.

When I got into the car, mom told me grandma is in SJMC (subang jaya medical center). I got a shock at first. But mom explained it's juz a thorough medical check-up. However, grandma's been having some bad coughs fer some time. Neways, we finally got there (sis were driving) and met grandma.

She looked tired, very old and exhausted. I cud even see d sadness in her eyes. Suddenly I felt very sorry fer her...I wish I cud do sth to cheer her up....

She went thro a few imaging tests. So far, everything is fine while there's some minor findings in her lungs. We're still waiting fer the doctor to explain to us regarding d findings.

Then we had a little conversation v her and bought her newspaper to read in case she's too bored. Sad to say, there was no one else there to accompany her besides us. Yet, I thank God fer she's a believer. At least God is there fer her. I told her I'll pray fer her before we stepped out of her room. We all hope she'll be fine.

-God plz be with her-

We went straight fer lunch in sri petaling carrefour. It's very exp to eat at E.K. But d food wasn't too bad.

I drove when we came back to vista. We were fine until we came to d turning after going up d slope to exit. There were two men fixing d light or sth at d end of d uphill slope. They took up some space n it wus rather narrow fer me, or rather my dad's car which I was driving, to pass through. But it didn't come to me det I shud slow down and take a little bit more space in front before I make d turn. So I went at my usual speed (which is very inappropriate speed under this situation) and made d turn and................my goodness! D car came into contact with d pillar on my right hand side and as I sped thro, d car got a thick scratch band on d rear door and extends alittle bit beyond d door to d back of d car. I got down d car n saw d paint was peeling off & some areas become depressed.... I heart sunk right to d bottom. =(

Dad didn't scold me but I wus asked to drive more carefully next time. Yet I felt terribly bad towards it. According to dad, to fix it, it's gonna cost up to thousand ringgit. =(

I'm sorry dad.... I shud have be more careful.... such mistake is gonna b d first time & d LAST time to happen, I promise.

2007-03-25T21:14:00.000+08:00

I juz realised my right knee is very much swollen now....it feels like there's a stone stuck in d joint...very stiff & uncomfortable...painful when I walk. It used to b much more painful. Perhaps I've been desensitised...however,I can't fully extend my right knee... =(

God, please give me peace. Take away my worries and pain...

-I need God's healing power-

2007-03-25T19:17:00.000+08:00

This song describes exactly how I feel...

My Source

Here is my life Lord Jesus
All I have I give to You
You're my God and my Saviour
You make all things new

My life is on the altar
I give my heart to You
In You I found my purpose
My reason of living is You

You are my source
and my salvation
Nothing compares to You
All of my days
I longed to know You more

Holy spirit pour down like water
I'm hungry for Your touch
Each breath I take
I give my all to You

Your words are life eternal
To whom do I go besides You
My dreams and my desires
I lay them at Your feel

God-centred life

2007-03-24T11:59:00.000+08:00

I think the reason why I couldn't share any of my experience during CG is because I haven't been really living a God-centred life...

I put my confidence in flesh, this is pride and self-centredness. Something that God wouldn't be happy to see in me...

I will try harder to focus on God even in minor things that happen in my daily routine...Learn to be dependent on God, learn to trust Him with my life.

-God will lead my way-

This song is meaningful....

2007-03-18T15:43:00.000+08:00

Artist : Christina Aguilera
Song : The Voice Within

Young girl don't cry I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl it's alright your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly
When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream of a place
Where nothing's harder than it seems no one bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

CHORUS:
When there's no one else, look inside yourself like your oldest
Friend just trust the voice within then you'll find the strength that will
Guide your way you'll learn to begin to trust the voice within, yeah,ooh

Young girl don't hide you'll never change if you just run away,oooh
Young girl just hold on tight and soon you're gonna see your brighter
Day, oooooh oooooh
Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed it's so hard to
Stand your ground when you're so afraid no one reaches out
A hand for you to hold when you're lost outside look inside to your soul

repeat chorus

Life is like a journey it can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning you'll find all you'll ever need to know
(Be strong) you'll break it (hold on) you'll make it just don't forsake
it because (no one can tell you what you can't do) no one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you

repeat chorus

Young girl don't cry I'll be right here when you're world starts to fall

It's OVER...

2007-03-18T00:38:00.000+08:00

Finally..........

MAW is over. It ended on 16th March 2007, 4pm, officially after having d debriefing.

Even though it has been alot of work, I'd miss that few months of working together with the committee. We shared alot of ups & downs.....or did we? LoL =P

If it weren't you, the event wouldn't have been carried out smoothly. So, I wanna take this opportunity here to thank everyone of u and u r:

Ken koon - eh even tho I dun like u callin me"ad***t", I wud still thank u fer ya great help! U've done sooo much det I think I cudn't thank u enuf. However I c how passionate u r towards martial arts. *bow* p/s: help me thank ya frens who helped shooting self defense video d other day one ok?

Wan chieh - bro, u've done alot too. I noe u alw tried ur best to share my burden. Really appreciate it.

Vanessa - hey gurl, u did a gud job as a secretary! thanks fer all d typing and printing. =)

William Choo - u joker!!! u've provided us with $$$. thank u fer taking up d self defense workshops even tho u were having exam d following day. but seriously, u're super funny esp when u & ken koon....uhem....LoL XD

Kuan ken - hey...thank u fer being active in contributing ideas. to b honest, i somehow got inspired by ya enthusiasm. keep it up! (but it's no gud in teasing me so stop doin it!! XP )

Kah weng - kekeke! sorry fer d kicks ya? here i thank u fer being my "punching bag".LoL. u're very supportive n cooperative (& very nice to bully....LoL...joking niah). thanks fer all d help!

Evelyn - hey hey...u're alw one of my role models ler. juz wanna tell ya, i really thank u fer ya time n effort to choreograph d demo. u're alw ready to help. u're juz soooooooo nice lar...=)

Kai meng - eh big bro aka sir, thank u fer helping in shooting d videos as well as demo. with ya presence, our club seems very "prestigious" lar... Hehe! p/s: i still owe u drink izzit?

Also....special thanks to khian boon, selene, sor eng, yuni, esther, vun heng, han liang, aaron & mui how, and all those who gave support to MAW!!!! U guys ROCK!!!~~~~~

I wanna thank God for his grace for allowing the event to go smoothly. It is just so great having know that God's always there for me, whenever I feel weak, exhausted, helpless....but with His presence, I feel relieved, refreshed, recharged.... God is faithful and His love endures forever...

MAW TKD demonstration

2007-03-13T22:05:00.000+08:00

Hehe!!! Here are some pictures taken during d demo....

Doing Turning kick

L-R: Kaarthig, Eve, Me, & Kai Meng
Me being d referee of two previous national fighters' showcase match

Hehe...Posing on Ev's shoulders. =P I think I'm too light fer her...

Kai Meng is in d AIR!!! LoL

Do u notice the fire set on the pile of planks?

Martial Arts Week Opening Ad

2007-03-12T22:08:00.000+08:00

Yooohooooo!!!!!

Everything went so smooth...well...erm...it's delayed abit but yea...it went well!!! ^^

Today is d first day of martial arts week. At 12.30pm, we started off setting up the scene. Then we tested the sound system and we made sure everything is in the right place...

Finally, when the clock hit 110pm, Jeremy & Nisha started calling the crowd to stay back and wait for the show. After a very very (it's really really short!) brief introduction, d music started and d five representatives from each martial arts club (five, bcos CMAC decided not to take part in d opening ad...reason given==>they're not free. ) slowly walked towards d centre of atrium (where we've put up tables and chairs) and sat down in front of d tables in a circle.Then......we started playing MAHJONG!!!! (Bliv me it's funny if u were watching d scene....it seemed very serious when all d five walked in, as if they gonna have a very serious conference....but it turned out to b playing mahjong instead... lol)

So d five ( acherly m one of d five lar), we, played & played...then suddenly another five guys ran out and surrounded us. Each one standing right behind each of us. N d first music stopped.

When d second music started, d first pair to fight was Aikido. Vun Heng was COOL.... Kee also makes a gud stuntman. Next, it's followed by Wushu. Well...they did not bad too...perhaps they cud do better given more time to practice. Then, Judo. Err...it wus really cool at d starting part...whr Khian Boon jumped up d table and gave Jason a punch right into d face....but err....maybe due to lacking of practises, d following part wus bit too plain....Um..but it wusn't tat bad afterall.

Finally, It's Taekwondo! (Which is represented by Me and Kah Weng lar. Hehe^^) I dunno whether d crowd cheered bcos M d only gal or bcos our moves are gud...but I wus feeling gud lar...I managed to accomplish my part smoothly. Must be God's grace be with me. =)

D last wus Ninjutsu. William wus cool at d starting part. But when he came to d throwing-flour-part, he cudn't open d plastic...n tat wus really==>FUNNY. (So no more cool cool ady lor...) But anyway, he did a gud job too. ^_&

Kkee...then opening ad ended with few bows to d crowds...

The comment that I got from the audience wus generally encouraging. Well...this is our FIRST TIME!!! I thought it went better than I expected! LoL

Hmm...thanks to everyone who acted in the sketch. Special thanks to Ken Koon, our choreographer, and Wan Chieh, our "cheerleader" (lol! JK niah brother!).

s

Ok oks...Here are more pictures of my curly hair... =P

2007-03-10T16:30:00.000+08:00

Janet & Me
Both of us got curly hair! XD

My fingers are really SHORT...XD

=(

2007-03-10T00:05:00.000+08:00

Today we had rehearsal for the actions for MA week opening ceremony again.

However, unlike the previous few practises, not only I feel physically exhausted, I feel bad emotionally, too. Becos....I "ter-kick" Kah Weng's head for a few times....aiyer ><...feel xtremely bad lar...y m I so stupid lar...kenot control my kick... =(

I just want to say...I'm really sorry, brother... *sob* Hope u won't get bruises later.... (But I'm glad about one thing, which is==> my kick isn't that powerful to cause too much damage. =P)

Anyway, thank you for helping ya, Kah Weng? =)

2007-03-08T23:26:00.000+08:00

Before I shut down my laptop, I must do this==>Blogging. tsk tsk!

Ok...today is Thursday. So as usual, I have TKD training. Sir came and we practiced kicking. Well, I must say, I love training kicking da most! Why? Simply bcos I LOVE IT! LoL (Lamer...!!!!!!=P)

But, due to excessive use of my knee, I am having d stiffness and tenderness in my right knee AGAIN....ish...(M I having osteoarthritis ar? D book says Osteoarthritis is a degenerative disease result from wear and tear of the knee cartilage wor...it's common in elderly...but d symptoms m having is very much like wut's described under osteoarthritis in d book wor...)

Anyway, it's not about d pain or stiffness, it's d Martial Arts week performances that is worrying me da most. I'm involved in d demo on both Monday & Tuesday. I'm worried if my knee will affect my performance. =( Anyhow, I'm still gonna do my best. I mustn't let every one's effort go down the drain juz bcos my knee rite...

2007-03-08T23:17:00.000+08:00

Aiks...very tired ler...but I still have to complete my PBL....think I have to burn d midnite oil again...T_T

2007-02-27T12:03:00.000+08:00

On Saturday, 24th Feb 2007, I did something det I've not done before in my entire life....

I paid to make my hair curled.

LoL

Hmm...at first I was kinda worried if people around cannot accept my new hairstyle. Luckily, they kinda like it esp my parents. (They were surprised and kinda excited seeing my in this new look. Hahaha!)

And...

I'm starting to admire my new look, more and more...

LoL

I'm glad I finally made it! The thought of having my hair curled had been haunting me since months ago. Just that I didn't have d money and d courage to do it until that day....I got my ang pows...Hahaha! =P

But sad thing is...

I got no more money left to spend...LoL...yep! I spent ALL my ang pow money lar... (aiyo...very bad lor hor? next time sure got problem one..dunno how to save money...haiz....)

Anyway...I think d money was spent worthwhile. =)

The seed of sin is first sown in the mind

2007-02-27T11:34:00.000+08:00

A Brand New day...

2007-02-26T11:15:00.000+08:00

Uhem! SO....finally, I've become one of d most senior medical students in IMU BJ campus. Feel proud? Err...not really. It feels more scary than ever. Being in semester FIVE is equivalent to being in 'hell'. No more shopping; no more hanging out; no more watching tv series; no more yum cha-ing; no more this, no more that..... arghhh.... ONLY studying. *sob*

Luckily it's only 6 months. I'll regain my freedom after d hell-like-EOS. For the time being, I have to compromise lorr....

p/s: All my friends...pls pray hard for me ya. THX!!! =)

Physically wounded

2007-02-22T21:54:00.000+08:00

Oh dear......why now???!!!!

I still needa meet up with my friends tmr... but now I'm having a terrible sore throat... =(

Yea...m very prone to get sore throat...I guess u still can rmb I mentioned having sore throat not long ago (erm...maybe last mth???) . This time I can hardly talk...that's so miserable ... How can a person like me (who likes talking so much) survives without talking to other individuals ????!!!(that indicates NO interaction with other living creatures ler!!!)

Yerr....it's still new year ler. That means I have to stay away from so many 'nice tibits' lar (mom forbids me to take any.....*sob sob*)

Aiya...got headache summore...kenot type anymore...*sob sob*....

Wounded

2007-02-21T10:39:00.000+08:00

I believe when a relationship is over, both parties get hurt.

I don't have the courage to try again...I just realised how timid I am.

I am tired... Grieving....I set my focus on other things.

I thank Jesus for his unfailing love. It is Him who makes me move on. He heals me bits by bits....

I pray everyday in my heart that Jesus will heal his wound, too...